Signore Biscotti :)

Hello my dear one,

Okay so Im not feeling the least inspired today, quite the contrary, mediocre.

So Ill try and make this as special as my mediocre brain possibly can.

It's your birthday and I hope it's one filled with fun, but I wish so much more for your year.

I hope this is a year in which the most miniscule of your dreams come true, a year filled with love and good news only. I want you to have everything you haven't had so far, but only the good things.

You probably dont know how special you've become to me, you're someone I look forward to

be online because I can confide you anything. What can I say? You're my signore biscotti :)

Happy Birthday.

ti voglio troppo bene <3



Ps:. Hope you can really meet me halfway someday :)



With Love,

M

SAT : Mission Accomplished

Finally

I feel so relieved, as if I took a giant leap towards my future. Now, all that's left is waiting...

Tu

Es esta solo la segunda entrada en la historia de mi blog que escribo en español,
y no considero que haya sido por discriminación ni mucho menos por ninguna razon denigrante ya que en mi corazón este es uno de lo idiomas más hermosos de la creacion, sino por mera negligencia.
Mas decidi que esta seria una entrada commemorable, algo especial en honor a alguien especial. Para alguien que sumisa aun indómitamente ha escalado las intricadas y frágiles paredes de mi corazon quebradizo.
Tu haces conmigo lo que ningun ser puede, una jugada ganadora en la fabricación de mis sonrisas, eres la pintura que le faltaba a mi lienzo descolorido y monótono, verdaderamente una parte elemental en la elaboracion de un día ejemplar en mi calendario.
Si tan solo imaginaras el poder que tienes sobre mi sistema nervioso, es algo tan curioso. Se me hace sumamente dificil expresar lo que pasa a tan alta velocidad en mi cabeza pero mas dificultad tiene por el puesto que ocupas en mi corazón.
Te paseas por mi mente tantas veces que ya eres un personaje clave en mis pensamientos...y te digo un secreto? No me quejo.

Truly Lost in Wonderland

"Now my feet won't touch the ground"

Thank You.

tic toc tic toc

Frustation is taking over the very best of me.
So much is going on and the clock is always ticking as if it were designed with the only purpose of annoying me. I want so many things and only one person enough to take an edgy step. I want everything with such an intensity I can only describe to an extent.
It is only today I realize I miss something but my head is such a blur of thoughts and emotions that there's no space for memories right now. Today feels like a flash of purple paint on a sunset canvas...interesting,no?
Sometimes I want to press not a forward button but a 'skip everything til graduation night, knowing which university am attending' button. Meanwhile I guess Im left with 100 more Calculus tests and 50 other 'crappy' essays worth B plus. Oh yeah.
I used to fantasize more about what my life would look like in college, now it is as if my brain has put my imagination on hold "please come back later - The Brain", why? because it's OVERLOADED, that's why!
Tomorow I have a test I should be literally eating my books for and here I am being loyal to my dearest friend, my blog...or procrastinating, however you want to see it. The thing is, my blog, Charlie B., lets me rant on and on about all my worries, angsts, depressions, happy moments, heartbreaks, new loves, old friends and new ones; Charlie B. lets me play my favourite music to him 24/7 and he's always available, isn't he the perfect guy? Yes, I think so too.
I love how sometimes when I look at that person he smiles his secretive smile at me, J'Adore and I'd love for him to keep doing it every single time. Well all I can say for sure is that right now I feel like writing the world's saddest song, maybe that'll teach my heart not to be so foolish.
So long, farewell, Auf Widersen, Goodbye...

Adieu,

Mariette ;)

My Storybook

Sometimes I just like to stare at you.

I make up all these little silly stories about what's on your mind,

sometimes the stories aren't quite so abstract. You see, I like being the playwriter of your stories, even if it's only in my mind. In these stories you are the hero of a romantic Shakespeare

tragedy or the ghost roaming the lonely walls of an abandoned castle.

Perhaps it would be nice to mention that sometimes you are a mythical creature of great enchantment and allure. At times you are a valiant dragon slayer and your stories are told across the globe.

Every so often you're a french bohemian who enjoys reading Poe and a cup of dark coffee...ocasionally you are such a free spirit and now and then you're an old soul. Once in a while you break my heart but now and again you're the only one who can fix it. There are times in which you like to sing to me softly and there are times in which you want to shout who I am to the world.

Maybe you're not any of those characters from my little stories, but I am guessing you are better than them...because, once in a blue moon I've seen you stare back at me and your eyes tell me that your stories of who I can be are more bewitching and have a certain air of magic.

I miss it.

"And I hear rain coming like a serenade of sound, now my feet won't touch the ground"

Vale, the Promised is Delivered...

A hot cup of coffee, and so my day starts.

French class, boring as always...I sing to myself and 'listen' to Mrs. Santana talk about Alexander The Great, but it's too early to get it in.

Recess is the same party as usual, music out loud, Paola, Melissa and Omar dancing...Justin, Jacopo and Joseph toasting bread, Celi and I catching up and talking about later on.

Then it's off to english class...it was library day so I started reading Vittorio the Vampire by Anne Rice (great book) Ms Donally goes on and on about how we need to be good readers to go to university and all I could think was "I certainly hope she's not talking to me...I basically read a book per week, sometimes two if Im too bored" hahah.

Recess Party Time again...During this recess we found an empty refrigerator which was in perfect conditions, in the middle of a hall...Curious. We then proceeded to keep our drinks in there. Obviously.

MATHS +__+ ..The end of me...turns out we got the functions test domani ;)

Third recess...pretty uneventful.

Now Social Studies class, A laugh as usual, I talked the whole hour with a british accent just to 'get the mickey' out on Mr. Coulby. HAHA. Worked on the many theories of deviance.

Then my mum picked me up at school and informed me I had the afternoon free from work, which is awesome cause now I get to go to the inter house football game at school :)

Well this was a small glance of my day for you Vale...It's not as interesting as the photos tour but still. Don't laugh at me too much after reading this :p

Ci vediamo stasera :)

Be Colourful

If we know everything in this life comes to an end why not make every day worth it?
why not smile to each morning sun?
let's make of our lives the journey we always wanted to take on, the ride and adventure
we seek courage for. Let's face every adversity with a positive mind and be thankful because
it could always be worse.
Let's make this possible, for us to help the less fortunate...to smile to those who want to hurt us because they don't know any better. To show a better side of ourselves to those who need it, to be available to help anyone at anytime.
Start everyday with a song in your mind and say goodbye to every night with one in your heart, climb your roof and stare at the smallest of the stars, but best of all, do it for no reason.
Don't overthink things, GO FOR IT and enjoy it because you deserve it.
Sing out loud and dance your body apart and please don't worry about what others think or say
if they're judging it's mostly because they don't know how fun it is to let go.
Don't JUDGE others, that only makes you as bad as the rest. LOVE and let LIVE. Tell the ones you love that you do, everyone needs a reminder from time to time. Tell that one person you like how they make you feel, don't regret it, do not feel bad about it, it's an honourable thing to tell someone of how GREAT they make you feel and of how important it is to have them around.
Love anything that's constructive and hate destruction.

Mariette :)

Across The Universe

"Pools of sorrow waves of joy are drifting through my open mind possesing and caressing me...Nothing's gonna change my world..."

Seniors 2010

The end of an unforgettable stage...the beginning of the rest of our lives.

Here's to the most amazing year of this closing chapter

If Today Was Your Last Day ~

Remember to reach for the stars regardless of who you are~


I'll be back later today, letting you know about all my 'last first day of school's' adventures :)

Awful Truth

"Winter. You'll miss it when it's gone."

www.greenpeace.org

Stop Child Abuse

" It shouldn't hurt to be a child"

Child abuse is an epidemy spreading through our society quietly and dangerously.

Beating a child isn't the only way of hurting an infant, you can permanently damage their mental, emotional and sexual health too.

If you know of a Child Abuse case you should immediately report to the authorities or someone who can help.

Don't just stay quiet, that's as bad as causing the damage yourself.

Help stop this massacre of innocence.

http://www.childhelp.org/

Stuck

"I don't know why people learn english, this is the DR, we speak spanish, english is unecessary"

That's why this country won't ever move forward, because of people who think and speak like that. People who aren't willing to overcome themselves, people who don't want change and the hope of better things under the excuse of feeling 'alienated' from their roots and culture, but remember that this is what it is : an excuse. The truth is that the only fear they face is that of failing at what they're supposed to do. I'm not here to judge, I am only a mere expectator of this game called society yet, but I will not stand for mediocrity.

Why Don't You Take Me Somewhere Nice?

Why don't you take me somewhere nice?

Somewhere where the words simply flow, somewhere where the clock just STOPS.

It's been so long since you don't take me anywhere, anywhere different, anywhere new.

And it feels as if the thoughts could drown me in any moment now. They're just like the clock:

never ending.

Why don't you take me somewhere far away?

I'd like to feel the cold wind on my face and the light to penetrate my thoughts, and maybe they

won't be so dark anymore. I reckon it would never change but it's nice to pretend. Maybe we can hide in those infinite shadows in somewhat a blessed perpetuity, run from those colossal fears that storm us.

Why don't you take me somewhere serene?

Somewhere where I can share my ideas with you, somewhere where you can listen and comfort me with some sort of affirmation. Somewhere you can give me just what I'm missing. A place so forgotten only us can give it sense.

I'd like you to take me somewhere rare and isolated from anyone but you and me.

Why don't you take me somewhere where time stops?

I just want the clock to rest for a second and let me take it all in. Take me somewhere we can get lost, somewhere where I can rest.

Just take me somewhere nice.

What a Difference a Day Makes....

" You never know the biggest day of your life is the biggest day...Not until it's happening"


- Isobel Stevens <3

Sesame Street

"Sunny days, sweeping the clouds away, on my way to where the air is sweet..."

Hours staring at the ceiling, dazing and daydreaming the days away. Trying to figure out

what I have to do to get to where I want.

Loving the view so far?...planing, working, laughing, thinking, mostly thinking and

dreaming. According to that guy, turns out life is what you make out of it and living it forgetting some steps makes the ride more meaningful. Who am I to argue with him?

I just wish I could get a clue to what I have to do...just get a glimpse of what it takes...I just want what everyone else wants from this journey: Happiness.

So can you tell me how to get to Sesame Street?

TEENAGEEEE WASTELANDDDDDDDDD

IT'S ONLY TEENAGE WASTELANDDDDDDD

Good day sunshine <3

And I Saw Sparks*

I know I was wrong,
I won't let you down...
My heart is yours,
its you that I hold onto,
Yeah that's what I do.

I'm not lost...

"Just because I'm losing doesn't mean I'm lost..doesn't mean ill stop..just because I'm hurting, doesn't mean I'm hurt, doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserved"
We spend half our day complaining about how shit doesn't go down the way we want or how we expected. Well life is that and THAT we must deal with. Because sometimes we don't realize how easy we get it and that sucks. Well life sucks and THAT we must deal with. So my proposal and new goal is to complain less about simple shit and just deal with it. Cause I'm a winner,I've learned I'm strong enough to deal with most of it and the day I'm not, ill let you know. But from now on Ill just deal with it.

Disappointing

The human race disappoints me.
I know you'll disappoint me an inumerable amount of times again and I'll probably keep coming back but only because its different from anything and everything else.

Infatuation

I didn't think it would happen so soon but at the same time it felt somewhat eternal.

For the charges of infatuation in the first degree, the defendant is found: GUILTY

And loving it :)

Death

Unexpected and silently crawling up on our lives every second... Death is expected...There's no running away.

Rush of Blood to the Head...

" Said Im gonna buy this place and burn it down
Im gonna put it six feet underground
said Im gonna buy this place and watch it fall
Stand here beside me baby in the crumbling walls
Oh Im gonna buy this place and start a fire
Stand here until I fill all your hearts desires
Because Im gonna buy this place and see it burn
Do back the things it did to you in return "

*

..."Come, dearie, near me so you can hear me,
I've got to whisper this softly.
For though I'm burning to shout my yearning,
the words come tiptoein' off me.
Oh, come to me, bend to me, kiss me good day...
Darling my darling, 'tis all I can say.
Just come to me, bend to me, kiss me good day...
Give me your lips and don't take them away..."

?

I know where I want to go
but I have no idea of what I want to do.

Parisian Perfection :)

Rainy Day, Dream Away...

What is it about a rainy day that gets to me so hard?

I have never been able to describe the feeling I get from the sound

of rain marching like soldiers on a rooftop or the particular smell of droplets

dancing on the still earth.

The way the silver clouds cover up the bright sun and make the world a

magical and solemn place to me. The presence of that tempestuous yet still cold

and soft breeze.

How the cold touch of a droplet can take me back to a better place and fill me

up with memories, or the nostalgic feeling I get from looking at a silver sky.

The way I get lost in my own little thought world by feeling the cold breeze

caressing the back of my neck.

The amazing stillness that tells you it's about to rain and the automatic desire

to slip in my most comfortable pijamas and listen to classical music while reading

and eating lucky charms and maybe on a good day to watch a sad movie.

The thing is, I think I was born to feel good in such weather, instead of complaining

when the sun takes a break, I smile and feel like fading away.

You Knew It All Along

They say we all come to this life with a purpose,

some never know what it is they have to do,

some try and try until they find what it is,

but some special beings don't only know it, but they

feel what it is they are supposed to do.

You knew it, you went for your dreams and lived

what you loved doing. You were a ballerina.

But you might not know that your life had a greater

purpose, and it was that of touching people's lives

without even knowing you did.

You will always be one of a kind in my heart for I

had never met someone so full of love like you were.



Thanks Tia Eli for being not only my ballet teacher

but a life example.

Love,



Maria



PS:. Rest in peace

Possible Careers?

Part time Engineer\ Football player\ Singer\ Microbiologist? :s

Laughing, Joking and Messing Around and About...

As I watch them all laugh, joke and mess around and about, I feel lonelier than ever.

I think and wonder, will I ever fit in with them? or will I ever want to fit in with them?

Truth is I like the laughs and the jokes and the messing around but they are all a cover up, they cover up the sad thoughts, the lonely smiles and the empty hugs.

Nobody knows, because nobody is interested enough to find out what lies beneath the sarcasm

and the laughs. Nobody wants to stick around long enough to see me in my true element, in the darkest one.

Something that I keep thinking to myself is that maybe those who laugh and joke through life will someday become exhausted of lying to the world.

Laughing and joking and messing around and about is not a horrid thing at all, but there is some danger to it. You might never notice the beauty that lies only in silence and in sadness.

In sadness our sincere feelings come afloat and so do the thoughts that we try so hard to sink.

Laughs and jokes and messing around and about don't let you wander off in the hidden forests of your mind, so for once, just shut up and listen at the only risk of finding yourself.

Maybe

...And maybe dreams really do come true...

Eyes On Fire...

" I won’t soothe your pain
I won’t ease your strain
You’ll be waiting in vain
I got nothing for you to gain

And just in time
In the right place
Steadily emerging with grace "

That Time

Hey remember that month when I only ate boxes of tangerines? So cheap and juicy!
Hey remember that time when I only read Shakespeare? Hey remember that time when I only read the back of cereal boxes?

Paris is Burning Tonight ;)

All of the boys and the girls here, in Paris. Sing to the night without sight, but with madness. I can't keep up, I'm a wreck, but want it. Tell me the truth, is it love or just Paris?
My heart is yearning, but Paris is burning. Paris is burning all night long. My heart is dreaming, but Paris is screaming. Paris is screaming all night long.
Kids in the street drinking wine, on the sidewalk. Saving the plans that we made, til its night time. Give me your glass, its your last, you're too wasted. Or get me one too, cause im new in any way tasting.
I've lost my way, its hard to find it through. I see the night, but im lost outside of you. I've lost my way, its hard to find it through. I see the night, but im lost outside of you.
My heart is yearning, but Paris is burning. Paris is burning all night long. My heart is dreaming, but Paris is screaming. Paris is screaming all night long.

Little Tricks of Destiny

Isn't it just funny how we write and do stuff in a certain moment in our lives, and then just sort of block them out of our memory? Well I recently found a letter I wrote, which I couldnt find any more suitable according to the timing of events. It's really ironic how somehow sometimes you can predict things, forget you predicted them and some time after they happen destiny finds a way to make you look back and remember.

Gravity

Classic Love Stories ..

What is the key to a happy life? I think this is the question we most ask ourselves during life. Some people think the key is in finding that one person which makes the world go round. Your soul mate.
Ive been reading a book about love stories of the second world war and I have been inspired. These couples have lasted 50 and 60 years together, never giving up on each other. Loving unconditionally. These are people who have sworn to wake up next to each other each day of their lives, during good and rough times and still feel the same way they felt when they fell inlove.
Our generation has been discouraged, we don't believe in the existance of love or marriage. The truth is we simply don't think its possible to love one person forever. We want it all to be easy and as soon as we see a complication we bail on each other.
Why not follow the example of these older couples? Why not try it? If they have managed to lead a happy life with one person, why can't we? I know love alone, sometimes isn't enough, but a wise person once told me love isnt just a feeling, love is commitment and patience.
The example of this to me are my grandparents, who celebrate their 50th anniversary together today. They admmit it hasn't always been sunshine and rainbows but the love they have for each other simply beat all the odds against them. I know this isnt usually my style of writing, you know in the name of love. But I thought why not be hopeful at least one day...you know 50 years IS kind of a special occassion after all.

Congratulations and I hope you both live to share many more years together!

Maria

The Scientist

"Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions,
Oh let's go back to the start..."

Adventurous..? Me?

.

Because I havent been feeling it lately,

because I DO want to feel it...because it makes me feel alive.

Because Im tired of sorrows and worthless tears.

I want an adventure...I want THE adventure, and not care.

To feel it all for once, to feel exposed. Naked.

Because even if Im not ready now...I just might anytime soon,

ready to be me and not care. Ready to have the most fun Ive ever had.

You'd be surprise of how fun a person who has been keeping it all in can be,

once its all out.

You're invited. If you want to join me anyways.

Gone

Where are you when I need you the most...?
When I really need you....

On and Off the Stage...

Don't you just love when you have a great day? I had one of those today! It started a bit off but I got by with a lil help from my friends :). Sometimes you gotta just STOP thinking about what bothers you so damn much and get carried away with the natural flow of things. I get by with a lil help from people I absolutely love even when they drive me insane! Music makes my soul light and dancing to it makes it an experience which I just can't explain. My school is presenting the musical "West Side Story" this year on may and Ive got to admit I havent been this excited since such a long time. This is my true passion, what I really want to do in life...Ive been thinking so much about it and Ive discovered how happy I feel when Im on a stage or performing, all my worries just simply vanish. It's amazing, besides it is really my great and sweet escape from hard reality.
My reality right now isnt really appealing...This year has started with facing issues that I even think are beyond our level of maturity...You know what I mean? At this level I actually love going to school cause it means getting out of my house, and I really hate school. Once classes finish for the day I just want to run away just to not get home. So I keep myself occupied. I dance and I act and sing and feel happy for a while. When I come back home I feel like nobody gives me their support, as if I was fighting against them, against a strong current. I don't care, I love what Im doing right now...I dont mind fighting. But the only thing I know is, I refuse giving up.
I refuse giving up on the only things I enjoy right now, the things that are making me so happy! I refuse giving up on trying to be positive on being happy. Im really trying, giving it my best because I know its worth it. Its a new me and I like it. Afterall, after the rain there's always sun.

Love you all which support me everyday of my life, you don't know how much you mean to me.

On The Safe Side

It really hurts so I really think it's safer to stay on the safe side for now...
Back to being myself again, not this weird copy of me.
How do you go back...? In my case, you only have to shut everything down for a while.

I Wish

I wish I was a million things
I wish I was a car speeding through the faceless crowd
I wish I was a star shining bright upon a silver sky
I wish I was a droplet so that I can fall so fast and not be scared of not being caught
I wish I was a book and be read from beginning to end
I wish I was a tear so that I could travel across the main stream of your face
I wish I was a song and be felt from inside out
I wish I was a dream and keep you happy all day long
I wish I was as tall as a tree
I wish I was a pancake and fill you up with satisfied smiles
I wish I was as free as the wind
I wish I was a wild horse running free through green prairies
I wish I was a kiss and make you blush in a second
I wish I was a vampire and be one with the night
I wish I was a colour and radiate emotions
I wish I was the sun and brighten your day

what is it?!

When will I be important enough to be anyone's priority?
Am I not interesting enough? Am I not smart enough?
Pretty enough?sweet or unique enough?
Am I not special enough for anyone to notice? Am I not good enough?
Or is it that Im just not worth it?
What is it? WHAT? What do I need to do to stand out, to make people see I
also am here and there? One would think some people would actually take
time to notice it, but no matter what I do its never enough.
I want you to care! I want you to want to care! I want you to take me in count
or to make me feel important in your life.
...I wasn't crying anymore...

17 ...Finally..?

I had a great birthday surrounded by people who I absolutely love.
I just feel so misserable once it's over, just as that one day on which I suddenly become so special goes away. Turning 17 is all Ive ever waited for but somehow I feel kind of disappointed.
It's stupid, I reckon, but I can't help feeling like that.