The Scientist

"Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions,
Oh let's go back to the start..."

Adventurous..? Me?

.

Because I havent been feeling it lately,

because I DO want to feel it...because it makes me feel alive.

Because Im tired of sorrows and worthless tears.

I want an adventure...I want THE adventure, and not care.

To feel it all for once, to feel exposed. Naked.

Because even if Im not ready now...I just might anytime soon,

ready to be me and not care. Ready to have the most fun Ive ever had.

You'd be surprise of how fun a person who has been keeping it all in can be,

once its all out.

You're invited. If you want to join me anyways.

Gone

Where are you when I need you the most...?
When I really need you....

On and Off the Stage...

Don't you just love when you have a great day? I had one of those today! It started a bit off but I got by with a lil help from my friends :). Sometimes you gotta just STOP thinking about what bothers you so damn much and get carried away with the natural flow of things. I get by with a lil help from people I absolutely love even when they drive me insane! Music makes my soul light and dancing to it makes it an experience which I just can't explain. My school is presenting the musical "West Side Story" this year on may and Ive got to admit I havent been this excited since such a long time. This is my true passion, what I really want to do in life...Ive been thinking so much about it and Ive discovered how happy I feel when Im on a stage or performing, all my worries just simply vanish. It's amazing, besides it is really my great and sweet escape from hard reality.
My reality right now isnt really appealing...This year has started with facing issues that I even think are beyond our level of maturity...You know what I mean? At this level I actually love going to school cause it means getting out of my house, and I really hate school. Once classes finish for the day I just want to run away just to not get home. So I keep myself occupied. I dance and I act and sing and feel happy for a while. When I come back home I feel like nobody gives me their support, as if I was fighting against them, against a strong current. I don't care, I love what Im doing right now...I dont mind fighting. But the only thing I know is, I refuse giving up.
I refuse giving up on the only things I enjoy right now, the things that are making me so happy! I refuse giving up on trying to be positive on being happy. Im really trying, giving it my best because I know its worth it. Its a new me and I like it. Afterall, after the rain there's always sun.

Love you all which support me everyday of my life, you don't know how much you mean to me.

On The Safe Side

It really hurts so I really think it's safer to stay on the safe side for now...
Back to being myself again, not this weird copy of me.
How do you go back...? In my case, you only have to shut everything down for a while.

I Wish

I wish I was a million things
I wish I was a car speeding through the faceless crowd
I wish I was a star shining bright upon a silver sky
I wish I was a droplet so that I can fall so fast and not be scared of not being caught
I wish I was a book and be read from beginning to end
I wish I was a tear so that I could travel across the main stream of your face
I wish I was a song and be felt from inside out
I wish I was a dream and keep you happy all day long
I wish I was as tall as a tree
I wish I was a pancake and fill you up with satisfied smiles
I wish I was as free as the wind
I wish I was a wild horse running free through green prairies
I wish I was a kiss and make you blush in a second
I wish I was a vampire and be one with the night
I wish I was a colour and radiate emotions
I wish I was the sun and brighten your day

what is it?!

When will I be important enough to be anyone's priority?
Am I not interesting enough? Am I not smart enough?
Pretty enough?sweet or unique enough?
Am I not special enough for anyone to notice? Am I not good enough?
Or is it that Im just not worth it?
What is it? WHAT? What do I need to do to stand out, to make people see I
also am here and there? One would think some people would actually take
time to notice it, but no matter what I do its never enough.
I want you to care! I want you to want to care! I want you to take me in count
or to make me feel important in your life.
...I wasn't crying anymore...

17 ...Finally..?

I had a great birthday surrounded by people who I absolutely love.
I just feel so misserable once it's over, just as that one day on which I suddenly become so special goes away. Turning 17 is all Ive ever waited for but somehow I feel kind of disappointed.
It's stupid, I reckon, but I can't help feeling like that.