End Of Summer

Ok, so its school tomorow! WHY good God?!

I so don't feel like going back to that place where it smells like...old BOOKS! :P

I don't know why, but this has been the first time I don't feel like going back.

Why? well, some of my friends...The ones who know me -oh so well-, and whom have spent every tiny exciting bit of my summer with me, say it's because this was probably my best summer ever! And I could actually agree with them ;)

This summer has been filled with exciting, fun, sweet, awesome adventures. These moments have given me the greatest memories. Memories that I don't ever want to forget...Not even the bad ones, cause they have made the good ones feel so much better!

It sucks that this summer is over as soon as it's 12.00 tonight...It's kind of scary too, cause I don't want all this fun to end as soon as this summer is over and that everything that happened during this great 3 months will end with the start of school :s

I just know next summer things will be totally different in so many different ways...It's just a feeling, so I am just enjoying these last couple of hours I've got left to feel the last summer thrill.

I Believe # 2

..Perfect

Night...

If you believe and give it your best...It will happen.
Look...It happened to me...again. =)

I believe!

Do you really believe that if you want something with everything you've got, it can happen?
I've always thought so...At least it should be possible. I've only wanted one thing that bad before and when everything went wrong, I tried with everything I had to make it right. At the end I got it.
Right now, Im wanting something so much, that I think it already crossed the line from being something I really want to something I need. All the odds are against me right now, but I'm trying to make it right! For the first time, I'm not thinking negatively or just giving up...I'm trying and I won't give up until I've given my best.
I believe in destiny and if something is meant to be, it WILL happen. Trust me.


I believe... I DO!! I DO!

Can't Get It Right

Ive waited and waited and haven't gotten it. I've tried and tried and don't seem to get it right!
Why can't I get it for once in my life? I'm getting tired of just standing by.
Me estoy cansando de tratar y de no llegar a ningun lugar. No puedo seguir dando vueltas pensando en quien me va a parar...
Estoy cansada de tratar y de no llegar a ningun lugar.

I'll See You Soon

You know how a song brings back thousands of memories and sends chills down your spine?

"In a telescope lens and when all you want's friends...I'll see you soon". That's just cruel.

That song only reminds me of you, every single time, over and over again.

Did you know I used to smile when I listened to it? It was my song. You said so...You gave it to me. Now its no longer my song, it's the song of a thousand memories of our times. It's the song that makes my eyes shed tears of nostalgy.

"With the windows all closed I'll be doing my best...I'll see you soon". How could you say I was your everything and then walk away? You said I could always count on you, cause you'd always be there. "Trust me".

"Oh, I know you lost your trust...Don't loose your trust...I'll see you soon"

I'm still waiting for that day Groene.

Here you have me waiting.

I guess I'll see you soon.

Ignorance Is Bliss...

Sometimes I am afraid of the night's arrival. It's during those dark and silent hours that I start asking questions. The questions I avoid asking myself during the day.

I am afraid because all of a sudden I think of the honest and dreaded answers to those questions.

Somehow the darkness of the night wraps around my mind making everything ironically clear. I really think it's a safe assumption to make that I'm not the only one who fears for the loneliness of the darkest hours of the day.

I think it's not the questions we're afraid of but the answers, because it's at that time when we're by ourselves, with no pretentions or walls. Just lost in a river of streaming thoughts.

It's at this time when we can't lie anymore, because as much as we want to, we can never fool ourselves. Trying to fool ourselves is just a waste of our given time.

It's at this time when you can see clearly, and sometimes the truth is not at all what we want to know.

For ignorance is bliss but no matter how much bliss you can feel when you're blinded by lies, it's nothing compared with the sweetness of the freedom given by the truth.

Logic

Funny how you think you know me so well,
how you think you read me inside out,
how you think you really do have all the answers.
You know nothing. You too are human.
No perfections or answers.
You don't know me.
You don't get to judge me
you are there but I can't feel you anyways,
you're not really there then, i guess.
I once looked up to you...but you are worse than me.
You hate hipocrisy and you are full of it.
So busy showing me where I'm wrong,
you think you know. You don't.
We're all messed up...
So superior, are you not.
I'm nothing but don't be mistaken, so are you
I'm not another experiment,
there's a hole in your logic, you who knows all the answers.
Your love is not anymore.
Meaningless and shameless.
You DON'T know me,
Don't act like you do.
You too are human.

As I wait...

I sit and wait, I just stare and wait.

I start wondering if its all worth it,

it might be but it might not,

I'd have to wait and see.

There's no escape from waiting,

Is there?

I sit and wait, I wait for any sign,

I think and nothing really makes sense,

But it does.

I'll have to just wait and see.

There's no getting away from waiting,

Is there?

Dear stranger,

Tonight I realized...I miss you. Why is it that you always find your way back ? You always find your way back to my head, but when I need it the most.
I might not have understood why it happened at first. I was in shock. Sad. Frustrated.
Then I finally got it...you were protecting me. Sometimes I feel bad because I think maybe it was for the best. When I don't think highly of myself, I think of you, and of how great you thought of me and of how amazing you made me feel and I just know I deserve better. You gave me that, it's one of my most precious gifts.
Then I didnt understand why giving me your best, even when you needed ME to give you my best...but then it came to my mind like a breath of fresh air. Giving me your best made you feel like you were the very best.
Now I just wonder: What if? What if it had been different? What if we had never met? What if?
Maybe I'll never forget you, but that's ok. Forgetting you isn't an option to me right now anyway.
You leaving made me ask myself questions that not even the greatest philosopher could answer, but somehow it only made me know you better. And that's ok too, because now I understand you're not a stranger at all to me.
You're like my favourite song. I know it backwards.