Loving..?

Love is an intricate issue.
Loving someone means giving up on all the senseless pride and showing your true colours to the significant other. It means being naked in front of a crowd, it's making yourself vulnerable to the extreme, it's risking your safety and your heart's for something that isnt even a fact...something that is just a feeling, something the scientists call "Chemical Reactions".
Loving someone is unfair to oneself, it's caring for someone too much, to even mind when they say something which you know it's complete and utterly nonsensical and stupid and even if you know it's not true to take it personal enough to get hurt.
Loving is letting someone else play with your feelings, mess with your head and get away with murder. Loving hurts beyond measure and it sucks specially when you know the person will never feel exactly the same way you do. It's literally a total and complete waste of time.
But we still fall for that archaic trap, everytime. Knowing you'll enter a never ending vicious circle which always ends at giving in too much and too far and of course getting hurt.
My conclusion being the human being is a stupid specie!

Problem-free philosophy!

Hakuna Matata! What a wonderful phrase

Hakuna Matata! Ain't no passing craze

It means no worries for the rest of your days

It's our problem-free philosophy

Hakuna Matata!

Hakuna Matata?

Yeah. It's our motto!

What's a motto?

Nothing. What's a-motto with you?

Those two words will solve all your problems

That's right. Take Pumbaa here
Why, when he was a young warthog...

When I was a young wart hog

Very nice

Thanks

He found his aroma lacked a certain appeal
He could clear the savannah after every meal

I'm a sensitive soul though I seem thick-skinned
And it hurt that my friends never stood downwind
And oh, the shame  He was ashamed
Thought of changin' my name What's in a name?
And I got downhearted  How did ya feel?
Everytime that I...

Hey! Pumbaa! Not in front of the kids!
Oh. Sorry

Hakuna Matata! What a wonderful phrase
Hakuna Matata! Ain't no passing craze

It means no worries for the rest of your days

It's our problem-free philosophy
Hakuna Matata!
Hakuna Matata! Hakuna matata!
Hakuna Matata! Hakuna matata!
Hakuna Matata! Hakuna matata!
Hakuna Matata! Hakuna--

It means no worries for the rest of your days

All

All I want is all or nothing.
we cant leave things at half.
In life either you're as in as you say you are or you're not.
And sadly that's how it goes.

7th symphony 2nd movement

There's an amazing feeling you get from listening to a song you love.
Beethoven's 7th symphony 2nd movement gives me that thrill. Not having any lyrics to interpretate or to sing along with, somehow makes it easier. Sometimes we are too focused on the lyrics to comtenplate the story the music's telling.
As soon as the music starts I'm not myself anymore, I'm someone more interesting and highly educated on wordly affairs. I'm not the dominican 16 year old who is stuck in a little party town.
I'm older and I live in Austria or France or England and play a perfect violin, speak 5 languages and know all there is to know about history, I dance ballet and work on my music and art most of the time.
The music tells me of a great story of triumph, sorrow and strength all intertwined. Tells me of loss and victory. There's nothing else but me and Beethoven.

Maria...

Ludwig Van Beethoven mum's name was Maria.
Maria Magdalena Keverich.

Handbook to Understand Some of Maria

I LOVE music and art. I think Eleanor Rigby is one of the most interesting master pieces ever written. Im not sporty at all, but Ill still go to the baseball play and support my team. Im really funny and sarcastic when required...If you're sarcastic, expect me to be sarcastic in return.
Im really demanding, I only want and expect the best from certain affairs. If I aked for too much from you, it's only cause I ask too much from myself.
I can party my life away on a good day and read a book on a great day and feel complete in a weird way. Achieving goals is one of my major pleasures in life, because I can easily give up on my way there. There's nothing easier but for me to get distracted, and there's nothing that distracts me more than a song I love.
I'm a thinker, I think and that's what I do, thinking. I think too much about things that I shouldn't really worry about. I'm a paranoid and block people out from my life when they're too close to becoming really someone in my life. I've read tons of books but ones that I always remember I read is "The Last Vampire" and "Anne Of Green Gables".
I love to feel to the maximum until I get afraid or ashamed and I can't do it anymore. If I'm really crossed don't go away until I let you in...Most of the time all I want is for someone to just listen and not judge.
I hate hypocrits and ignorance. I'm a sucker for Europe and I want to live there "when I grow up". I hate it for people to have preconceived ideas of who I am. Im not stupid, Im not plastic, Im not a bookeater, Im not mean, and Im certainly not a bitch UNLESS you ask for it. Then I become someone other than Maria.
I used to hate my name until I met the song "Maria" from "West Side Story" and only then did I understand ' how beautiful a sound can be...'. I love acting and singing but I do panic before doing it for big crowds. I cried when I first sang ''Yellow'' in public, it was just too much joy to handle.
I can be sweet and I can be sexy...I can be both at the same time. I can speak three languages almost fluently (almost because of French). I WILL sing in the most unappropiate moments and feel complexed about my height...especially when YOU say it.
I love serenades and chocolate milkshakes. When I devote myself to something or someone...I truly devote.
Ive always wanted to name a pet Prudence or Eleanor Rigby. I LOVE The Beatles and Coldplay and if you asked me which is the best moment in my life, I'd say my first day in rainy, cold and misserable Manchester =)
Finally, I am me, Myself and I and nothing can ever change that... I am who I am, and I am....
Maria.

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Sometimes not feeling is worse than feeling and you just want to die.
disappear.